He hears his name again and it's almost enough to melt his heart. He hates it. He had been so mad because he thought he was played. And as much as that hurt, as hard as that was to deal with, right now it would be easier if he could just believe it was as bad as it felt.
His eyes shut as a free hand comes up to run fingers through his hair. He wants to stop this conversation from happening right now, except maybe he doesn't. That's why he's here, alone with Reyes. When it came to matters of the heart...well...he followed said heart. ]
Yeah, well, that's what made it suck so bad.
[ He only just realizes that Reyes had moved in a little closer when he opens his eyes again. So close. They were always so far away from one another but right now they were so close. That's all Ryder ever wanted. Was to be close to someone.
They had been. That was real. Reyes had said as much when he accused the other of lying to him about "everything", and he was too angry and stubborn at the time to consider that...it was the truth. And now he's saying it again. Shit.]
I just...I've always been an open person, and...obviously...
[ —look, he's just trying to acknowledge that he understands...that that's not something Reyes can always afford. But it's a lot harder to say than he thought. ]
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He hears his name again and it's almost enough to melt his heart. He hates it. He had been so mad because he thought he was played. And as much as that hurt, as hard as that was to deal with, right now it would be easier if he could just believe it was as bad as it felt.
His eyes shut as a free hand comes up to run fingers through his hair. He wants to stop this conversation from happening right now, except maybe he doesn't. That's why he's here, alone with Reyes. When it came to matters of the heart...well...he followed said heart. ]
Yeah, well, that's what made it suck so bad.
[ He only just realizes that Reyes had moved in a little closer when he opens his eyes again. So close. They were always so far away from one another but right now they were so close. That's all Ryder ever wanted. Was to be close to someone.
They had been. That was real. Reyes had said as much when he accused the other of lying to him about "everything", and he was too angry and stubborn at the time to consider that...it was the truth. And now he's saying it again. Shit.]
I just...I've always been an open person, and...obviously...
[ —look, he's just trying to acknowledge that he understands...that that's not something Reyes can always afford. But it's a lot harder to say than he thought. ]